I'm not quite sure how it happened. One day I was pondering Aquinas' third argument for the existence of God. You know, it's the argument that something must have a necessary existence or else everything could cease to exist.
I don't have to exist. You don't have to exist. The earth and solar system don't have to exist. Just about everything comes in and out of existence because our existence is contingent, not necessary.
But if the existence of everything was contingent, then it is possible that everything would go out of existence at some point, and then nothing would exist. And, of course, how then could anything ever come to exist again?
Anyway, I'm not quite sure how it happened. I only doubted for a moment, and then everything stopped existing. I know, I know, then how am I talking to you. And you probably think you still exist. I'm working on it. But don't you see, it isn't even dark. It just isn't. There's not even emptiness.
Even Aquinas couldn't have appreciated true nothingness. We're talking the empty set here, the null set. That's not even zero. We're talking "no answer." We're talking asymptote, trying to divide by zero. It's nothing between the two brackets. Ø
Nothingness is less than space. We're not talking about a fixed vacuum into which God puts stuff. Einstein tells us that space expands as speed slows down and mass decreases. I'm not sure what it means to say that space or emptiness can expand or contract. I'm not sure what it means to say that the universe is not infinite but that space itself comes to an end at some point. But that's what's going on.
I'm in that nothingness beyond the emptiness. I always pictured creation as God standing somewhere in the middle of Ø and pushing some button with an Ω on it, an omega or something. I suppose an alpha button with an A on it would make more sense but omega looks cooler.
And then it all starts. I used to think that the first button would take it from Ø to 0, and then he would go from there, but I suppose it all just kind of happened all at once, from Ø to everything from the start. I don't mean everything the way it is now. I just mean from nothingness to stuff, from nothingness to an expanding 0 and a bunch of stuff in it.
But what do I know.