I hope you don't mind if I do my therapy in public, but I thought it might help someone else out there like me work through this thing.
Basic Premise: We might differ with this or that board member on this or that issue, this or that decision, but 1) surely the collective board has Asbury's best interest in mind, 2) surely the collective board has a heart devoted to God and His Christ, 3) surely the collective board was over-informed if anything of this situation, and 4) surely the board has some truly insightful, wise, and savvy individuals on it.
Thought 1: Regardless of the past, regardless of the events that led up to this day, I'm going to try to believe that the final decision was the right one for this point in time. This is especially true if a high percentage of the board thought this was the right course of action.
I personally do not believe that there ever was any single, fatal "Weapon of Mass Destruction" found. But I'm going to try to trust that, however we got to this point, this was the right decision for where the seminary was at yesterday.
Thought 2: Even though I've been critical of the way this whole process has been conducted, even though I think there are some changes that can and should be made in Asbury's governance system, I'm going to try to trust that the board will self-correct.
I found nothing out of order in the "We Wonder" series for the way it pointed out irregularities in the way this crisis has been handled. I'm going to try to believe that their voice has been heard. I believe the board values the faculty here and will reach out to them at some point in the near future. I doubt they'll do it as fast as I would if I were on the board :-) But I believe the collective board has and will seriously wrestle with how to honor confidentiality and yet let the faculty know that they have highly valued their voice.
It may take a few years for them to work through what shared governance means and balance of power issues. But I'm going to try to believe that they will.
In a strange way, a way I wouldn't have expected to experience even when I got up this morning, I believe the board will do their best to make this thing right not only in their own minds (I believe they already believe they've done the right thing), but to help the rest of us out here watching as well.
If I and we can manage to be patient, I think God will work all these things to where unexpected good rises from the ashes!
I hope that God will richly bless all of you who have struggled like me through this thing!